不公平

走了那么

远发现你不在身

边独自走过了什么

自己都不了解

未来的蓝图应该有你

不该只剩鞠

只是偶尔泪流不停

坚强的理由

只是自己骗自己

你眼中的恐惧

说什么都多余

付出的一切值不值得

永远不会有答案

只有天知道我有多么爱你

一颗心属于一个人

在爱情里什么算公平

爱得深也伤的深

是不是罪免了自己

一颗心属于我自己

爱情里找不到公平

而当你最后选择了逃避

我学会不公平

本来就不公平

THE POWER KEY OF SECRETS

Hearts are created as safes for keeping secrets. Intelligence is their lock; will-power is their key. No one can break into the safe and steal its valuables if the key or lock is not faulty. I have a secret, which I keep in my safe for almost a decade.
This is not a silly secret. I have to promise not to tell anyone. Promising to keep the secret. I clearly understand that keep a secret is vital and is the same as guarding one’s chastity. Once I broke my promise and the secrets spread, the resulting let down can wreck my reputation as well as my honor. People who know me will also not to trust me with what I had promise. Hence, I won’t get respect. It’s tempting not to tell secrets or easy make promise.
Yes, I truly understand. But this really causing me uneasiness. Sometimes I wonder, ‘chaste’ and ‘happiness’ which is more important to me? You know what? Keep secrets is hard but tell the secrets need more powerful. I’m lack of this lesson.
Remembered I cried. My head just seems to be going in circles and all I can pictures are worst-case scenarios. I really want to tell you after I know you are reading my article. I assumed you asked me and I’m ready for the questioning. My hearts start to beat a little faster, my body tense up. But you never asked. I did not felt any bad feeling yet my feeling was liked escaping from a dangerous place. Sooner my power to tell vanished into the air.
I still keep the secrets today, not I care about my chaste and happiness is not important to me. I only need times to build up more power when open the safe. I believe my intuition; my power key will come back to me some day and I will open the safe myself using my both hands. I promised. (Oooppss, again).

Impressive or Unimpressive

How do people look at you? How do people rate you? What happens when someone you think things to you better acts differently than you think they should have? Some don’t care what others think about them. But some do care a lot. I should say, I am both of them.

Many should say, why do you do it to impress someone? There are times when impressing will help you better in your workplace or in the party. These are the guys, people envy. Everyone wants to create an impression somewhere or others. Some may not agree but is playing an important role in climbing to some one’s heart.

That’s the reason, maybe finding a loved one is almost very difficult. The people we met on every day, never get impressed with our looks. Maybe if you dressed like a cinderella, they will only notice you but never do they get impressed. On the other ways say, the amount of time you spend with someone and frequency of meeting them plays a real success role in creating an impression.

Things I thought would work out and thought people would understand me, like the ‘be myself way’. But I guess, getting to know things on me, which not as per your expectation is quite a shock feeling.

Warehouse Sales on duty

On duty today. Lucky is raning and the atmosphere is good. Chill out there. See I wear my jacket!

My patner ~~

~ Ling & Yee

~Wendy

Me looks cute. Ling looks silly...lol

1.30pm ~ Lunch time

Spaghetti tomato sauce with luncheon meat

Yummie. But can't finish it.

You think you had a bad day?

You think you had a bad day today? This guy really had. Rain this morning. Rush to get his car to avoid get wet. Start the engine and ready to have a great journey to work. While he reverse his car, suddenly a big BANG sound came out from outside. Immediate he came out from his car and only then he realize his front right tyre are missing. Oh my god! Shit! Damm! or even more words came out from his heart to release his anger. The tyre was stollen. My sister and I are watching out from our window too sympathy with his situation.

Asking for help.

Looking at his car with sad.

Disappointed


I wish everyone have a great day today!

Happy Birthday - Lyssa

Congratulation

on

your

30's

Birthday!

22 August 2009, 8.30pm at Carat Club Pavilion

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I've got a toothache

I have a bad tooth pain in my upper left molar. Pain when chewing. Pain when drink cold water. Recently I found severe pain in my gum about a week now. They seem to be a little red and swollen. It makes me feel uncomfortable. Tommorrow I'll see my general dentist at 10.30am nearby my house. Hope my tooth is in good condition. And I don’t want to lose any of them!

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12th August 2009 To save my tooth, I need to do root canal treatment. The root get infection and that is why the gum swelling. Today is only the 1st treatment the doctor give. I need to come back for the 2nd and 3th treatment for the next 2 following weeks. Poor me.

19th August 2009 Today is my second treatment. My mouth open wide for 1 hour without close and gargle, that what the he told me before. I felt my mouth start shaking after 1/2 an hour because of tiredness. I take a deep breath to release the tiredness. I told myself it almost done, be patient—soon the tiredness disappeared. After awhile, my buttock and my whole left foot get lumps. Shit! Slowly I move my buttock to left and to the right. And then, I stretch my both leg. Bend them a little. Repeat it until I feel better. (Remember all this I do it with slowly)Another treatment and last on 25 August.

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