Monday, September 14, 2009

不公平

走了那么
远发现你不在身
边独自走过了什么
自己都不了解
未来的蓝图应该有你
不该只剩鞠
只是偶尔泪流不停
坚强的理由
只是自己骗自己
你眼中的恐惧
说什么都多余
付出的一切值不值得
永远不会有答案
只有天知道我有多么爱你
一颗心属于一个人
在爱情里什么算公平
爱得深也伤的深
是不是罪免了自己
一颗心属于我自己
爱情里找不到公平
而当你最后选择了逃避
我学会不公平
本来就不公平


THE POWER KEY OF SECRETS

Hearts are created as safes for keeping secrets. Intelligence is their lock; will-power is their key. No one can break into the safe and steal its valuables if the key or lock is not faulty. I have a secret, which I keep in my safe for almost a decade.
This is not a silly secret. I have to promise not to tell anyone. Promising to keep the secret. I clearly understand that keep a secret is vital and is the same as guarding one’s chastity. Once I broke my promise and the secrets spread, the resulting let down can wreck my reputation as well as my honor. People who know me will also not to trust me with what I had promise. Hence, I won’t get respect. It’s tempting not to tell secrets or easy make promise.
Yes, I truly understand. But this really causing me uneasiness. Sometimes I wonder, ‘chaste’ and ‘happiness’ which is more important to me? You know what? Keep secrets is hard but tell the secrets need more powerful. I’m lack of this lesson.
Remembered I cried. My head just seems to be going in circles and all I can pictures are worst-case scenarios. I really want to tell you after I know you are reading my article. I assumed you asked me and I’m ready for the questioning. My hearts start to beat a little faster, my body tense up. But you never asked. I did not felt any bad feeling yet my feeling was liked escaping from a dangerous place. Sooner my power to tell vanished into the air.
I still keep the secrets today, not I care about my chaste and happiness is not important to me. I only need times to build up more power when open the safe. I believe my intuition; my power key will come back to me some day and I will open the safe myself using my both hands. I promised. (Oooppss, again).